Been busy with a lot of work stuff lately, which got me to the point where I was/am feeling very unconfident in myself because it feels like I'm not doing enough and others are doing a better job than me.
The main issue here is believing that crap about myself.
Instead of believing that, I should give myself more grace and let myself drop some balls while learning to do all these things. I'm mostly doing my new job on my own, with little guidance/steering, which messes with my mind.
I've spoken about this, but as my manager stated, I am harsher on myself than I would like to admit. I hate the feeling of being a professional with over 10 years of experience, but my current situation basically means I am the most junior person. I do have a picture of how this job should be done ideally, but I am concluding that it might take more work and effort to get to that point.
And I don't like the fact that I want to do this new job as if I have been doing it for the last 10 years. So if you're to get into this career and you feel uncomfortable or feel like you don't belong here, just know you're not alone. Apart from feeling really uncomfortable in my current job position, I feel the same way writing about myself and the things I do online. For some reason, I'm always stuck on how I can convey something so other people know exactly how I think, see, or feel about things in life.
I might share some other stories about the things I am and/or have been doing in the last couple of months, as it has been a rollercoaster. And honestly, the only reason I keep going is that it won't happen by itself.